That's my general attitude about my health.
People ask me how I am...my answer; It could be worse.
It's the first thing I said when I was diagnosed 3 years ago. I don't have cancer right? It could be worse.
I couldn't feel my right leg, I couldn't turn my head and walk at the same time without falling over.
It could be worse.
Then I got better, so much better...and then pregnant, and then 100% better. And when people asked me how I was I said "I've been worse".
So now that disease begins to creep back into my body, now that it starts to win the occasional battle I remind myself. It could be worse, it has been worse and if it's up to me it's not going to get any worse then it is right now.
I have gone to bed everyday for the last few weeks saying the same thing. 3 years ago you could stick a needle in my right ankle and I wouldn't have felt it. Today, that is not the case and I think I would kick you if you tried.
So I lay my head on my pillow and repeat it again and again and I concentrate on my left eye. In the morning maybe my vision wont be as blurry. A week from now maybe I won't be getting headaches anymore from straining to see. 3 years from now I will look back at this time in my disease and remember.
It's been worse.