I'm a Mommy.
Wow, I mean I knew it but seeing it here makes it all the more real.
Everything makes it more real.
I am still in a little bit of shock I think. I look at her, and look and look and look. Trying to memorize every little part of her before it grows....or before my shock and awe is worn away by sleepless nights (check time stamp please) and fits of what we now refer to as..."Unrelenting Riley Action".
There is a reason she was so active on the inside.
We are still working on nicknames...not to mention a blog-worthy name.
Here is what we have so far...Pumpkin Seed, Muffin Butt, Peanut (this is what I went by so I favor it), Gum Drop..but really the most fitting is The Unrelenting Riley.
She never gives up...She never surrenders.
Her most important trait, that is why she is here.
I have always believed in her; When the nurses began to move not with panic but quickly and with greater purpose; When they had me changing position searching for a dropping heart rate; When I knew something was wrong.
They cut her out of me, they told us finally that she was a SHE.... and whisked her away. We just waited. I prayed.
And then she was there, and she was perfect, and so beautiful.
Relentless I tell you.
For all the stress she was under, for her itty bitty cord, for the meconium, her lateness and for what my doctor called an ugly and degenerating placenta....she was perfect and in her father's arms.
Relentless my daughter.
A time will come when I use this term freely with her again (I suspect she will be about 3) but for right now I am blessed, we are blessed by unrelenting perfection.
Thank you everyone for your warm wishes and loving remarks. It was a thrill to come home to.
Even if it had to be at the crack ass of "why the hell am I awake?" and with the newly forming skill of blogging one handed.
Like nursing. It is an art form.